.Crazy.Serious.

What you see is not always what you get.

I have never really put much thought about our society. How could I when I can't even put much thought on anything less?

But Looking Backward by Edward Bellamy made me. Although I haven't really read until the last pages, its foreword had enlightened me about how we, Filipinos, can rise from the slums our ancestors left us in.

Edward Bellamy was a lawyer who gave up his practice to pursue his passion - writing. He became an editor in a newspaper but he knew that wasn't the kind of writing he wanted. He wanted to write about his thoughts. So when he fell sick, he retired from his newspaper job to write literature. That's when he wrote Looking Backward. Because he had witnessed the social and political ills and because he had always vied for reforms, he wrote Looking Backward.

Looking Backward calls for socialism. The much yearned utopia of the American people, he said, will be achieved if equality reigned. His descriptions were vivid. His analogies were convincing. He said that society could be imagined as a coach. The horses pulling the coach are the poor people and the wealthy are on top of it. The driver is hunger who does not let the working people rest. They're making their way to a bumpy road that can unseat even the rich.

The poor people are working their lives to death just to avoid suffering from hunger. The rich, meanwhile, are sitting there trying so hard to cling to the coach fearing they might fall. If they do, they would lose the benefits of being on top of the coach. They would become workers, themselves. And the workers pulling on the coach would try to take that fallen man's place. The ablest would win. At long last, he does not have to worry about hunger. The sad part is, he has forgotten about the other working men because he is so preoccupied with clinging to his seat.

He does not try to help them because he knows their isn't enough space for all of them in the coach and even if there were, who would keep them moving?

I can clearly see the Philippine society in this setting. I think socialism is very much appropriate for us. Imagine losing all the capitalists and following the middle way. Everyone will live as they were supposed to live - not as workers or as the elite but as a human beings able to appreciate life and all of its comforts.

Of course, our capitalists will oppose this but we have to sacrifice for the welfare of everyone. We have got to stop thinking only for ourselves but for our fellow Filipinos. We need to stop the tycoons from gobbling all the resources up.

Just think of what it will do. If we were to embrace socialism, the door of possibilities will open wide.

What you see is not always what you get.


It has been a while since my last update. There were just too many things I needed to finish in school. The toxicity level almost went up as high as, uh, an overdose of an effective 'depressant'. It was like trying to keep my head afloat the fast current. But a big YAY! I survived.


First things first, my sister topped eight in the recent Pharmacy Licensure Exam. (Like, yeah so?) HAHA!


That's a 5-minute standing ovation for her! We were all so happy and so ecstatic. She was still so high on it when it started wearing off on me but it was her day so I was not going to kill her joy.^_^ My parents went to visit us that weekend (the results got out last Friday?).


We went to visit our mom's friend and our lola (actually our lolo's sister). Everywhere we'd go, my mom would always talk about how Ate Avi's topped the the boards and start sharing her story. Sometimes the story's all mixed up but that's just our mom. She has the tendency to do that. It adds to her charm!^_^


Maybe the only thing I don't like about the news is that now my mom's so fixed about me taking MedTech Boards! Argh. Now the pressure is on me.*_* I don't want to take that freaking exam. It's scary. (Yeah, so what if I'm a scare-dy cat?) And he's going to take that, too. I think.


Anyway, I still have 3 more years to work on that. So I'll be chilling for the meantime.


So there's something that's been bugging me for quite a while now - okay, so maybe 3 days.
The fact that I don't know which is better among the following gives me the creeps.

1. Being a jack of all trades yet a master of nothing or
2. To be a master of one thing but ignorant of anything else.


I once said in my previous post that I want to be the 'medieval' character or, as what Freddie Prince said in his show, a renaissance woman. I want to be good at everything. But I also said in my other posts, that I want to be known in a certain field. I want to be an instigator of something radical that will be my legacy.


I want to have the best of both worlds. I want to do those two in this lifetime. But I can't help thinking that successful people didn't really have the first. They were too absorbed with their only 'hobby' and didn't have time for others. And I think that is the reason why they are so darning successful.


I haven't had time to really ponder on this. But so far, I have yet to reconcile this with my plans and dreams.


Argh, I'm twisted. *At least I am not talking about him anymore, huh?*

What you see is not always what you get.

Tomorrow is our fourth and, hopefully (if we get exempted from the finals), last exam for the laboratory part of our summer course Zoology. I should be studying. I should be cramming my butt off trying to answer all questions in the manual. I should be finishing everything laboratory-ish - not sitting here in front of the computer making an unproductive entry about not studying for tomorrow.

I should be studying but I am not. Maybe it's because there are only tomorrow and friday before I go back to Pangasinan and finish some personal agenda. Maybe it's because there are only 4 school days left before summer classes are over. The things that keep me from studying are far from what I thought I prioritized - then.

Family is important. I should know that family should be up on my list. I am going to the premier state University not only because it offers quality education (and for personal development) but also because it is practically more affordable than others. Knowing this, I strive to graduate and get a high earning job to support my family. All these I do for them; but what would one do with all the education he/she has acquired if he/she has neglected or worse, forgotten, the reasons he has pushed so hard for it. Since my visit to Pangasinan is a family affair, it is only right for me to request for a few adjustments in school.

Psych10 in school taught us that life can be grouped into boxes where the different dimensions of your being lie. Their is family, love life, friends, school, work, and any other things you consider part of who you are. The course taught us that when in stress, you have to know that it is only one box in your polydimensional life that is 'temporarily' crumbling. If your love life sucks right now, that does not mean your whole life is ruined. You have other boxes to open and be grateful for. So when you get tired of School, why not try delving into, let's say, Internet?^_^

I love the saying 'Never let education interfere with your learning.' It holds so much ground that I could barely stop myself from laughing at my old self who thought that life is all about studying. I thought life revolved on constant studying for a far-off test. Now I realize that education is just a part of learning. There are many things we should be experiencing now. Life is too short to wait for graduation. It is even shorter to wait for retirement!


All things being said, I resolve not to study tonight. I will concentrate on my philosophies and hope that,once again, cramming will work it's magic tomorrow.

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