I rant about my feelings and thoughts. I am a very emotional person and drama keeps me writing. I love complaining and I love posting pictures. I love to share my thoughts and I live to see the day when everything here gets published. (Yeah right.)
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Thursday, March 29, 2007
Our kids.
What you see is not always what you get.
It's thursday! Only two more days left before I head home to Pangasinan. I can't wait (to kick that son of doctor's ass). Hahaha! Kidding.
I am a college student. I should know what I want to be. That's what college is for. So why am I still confused?
Because we were never raised to think of the future. We were never really trained to prepare ourselves for what awaits us.
In the old times, children as young as seven year olds are already sent away from home to be apprentices to working men. Little girls are made to learn how to sew and do household because that is what is expected of them. However, that should not be the case today.
The point is, they already know who they are even at those tender ages.
What about us? That's is why it is hard for us. We wasted our whole life thinking about everything but our future lives. We spent them doing things that would not lead us to what we are supposed to be.
Now, we are struggling to look for our niche in the society.
Yehey! I only have three more exams to go! I hope I do well on all of them.
Bitching has been my past time lately. I really do think my friends are getting tired of hearing me whine and complain about how lousy my life is. Guess what, I am (or I WILL BE) moving on. No more complains. No more drama. Just plain fun! It's summer. The best time to have the most fun!
Can't wait for my brother to come home! Welcome back kuya! hehe..
I'll be going to Bataan for a week. From April 9-15. I'll be participating in a Rural Service Project spearheaded by UP Caduceus and KALFI, (I think). I think it's going to be fun!
My whole summer's planned out already. I hope everything goes the way it is planned. Wishful thinking. *,*
Things to occupy my mind and my time: 1. Memorize lyrics of a song. (suggested by Rodz) 2. Read Shakespeare. It's kind of embarassing that I have not read any of his works. 3. Read Greek and Roman Mythology. This, too. 4. Sound trip! Download new songs and sing my heart out! 5. Blog more often. See what's going on with other people.^_^ 6. Study hard. 7. Keep in touch with family and friends. 8. Chat alot! 9. Watch movies. 10. DOTA 11. Arcade!
I have tried to revert back to the old Monica. It's hard to go back to what you have been. But I will. In due time.^_^
Doing something out of the ordinary like, let's say, getting you head shaved has its consequences. Even if you have looked at it at every angle, even if you have asked for second opinions and even if you have asked for their approval, there will still be unexpected turn of events that would make you regret your decision.
I envy those who do not experience this.
Going against the norms is something I am not afraid to do. I had my head shaved. Need I say more? I don't care about the weird looks I get. I don't even give second thoughts to the smirks and stares I get. I find it even funny. It's as if they think I'm crazy.
That's just fine with me. I don't care. So what am I complaining about?
I just find it hard to reconcile with my actions when the closest of the closest to me can't accept the fact that I am who I am. I do crazy things that other people won't understand. That's Monica.
I treasure my friends so much that even if I knew they themselves don't get me, I would not let them go. Even if they trash me behind their so-called constructive criticisms, I would shrug it off and go on being friends.
But what if they go overboard? What if they hurt you so badly that they make you cry for two straight days? What if you can't concentrate on the things that need to be done because you keep on thinking about how to solve this problem? WHat if you keep on reaching out but there's no one on the other side?
What if you're just thinking life's too perfect to blow up on your face and never realize that you do have to let go and move on?
I don't want to let go. But are they telling me to do so? Do I have to burst my own bubble? I am bleeding and the only friend who can help me won't even give me first aid.
Once again, life sucks for me. I've never had this feeling for a very long time. Crappiness of life has outrun me. Then again, it makes life full of hopes. and worries.
