Tuesday, July 19, 2005

I pity the man who pities himself.

added some new photos sa blogsnip ko. .

And check out my photos sa friendster. nacucute-an ako sa mga sky-photos ko.. weirdo...

posted by Monica Pastoral @ 8:56 PM 2 Freaks

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Wait! umuulan! sana lumakas pa.. Para masaya! maliligo ako!!! yehey!!!! lakas lang, ulan pa!!!!

posted by Monica Pastoral @ 11:41 AM 2 Freaks

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Tanga ko talaga.

I pity the man who pities himself.

Natatawa ako kasi I pity the man who pities himself. Who do you think am I referring to? Iniinsulto ko lang sarili ko. HAHAHAHA!

Hindi ako pumasok ng klase niya last wednesday. WAHAHAHA! naaliw ako. Pero may valid excuse naman ako eh. Kaya okay lang yun. Tuloy pa rin ang buhay. HAHAHA!


Diko pa natatapos yung book report ko. Ang tanga ko talaga. Naiwan ko yung stuff ko sa school. Eh kokopyahin ko na lang kasi naisulat ko na doon. Asa pa ako! hehe.. Pero di ako natatakot, naiinis, ninenerbyos. Dati kasi ganun ako. Bahala na ang bago kong motto. HAHA! (Keep on dreaming, niknok!) Asa na lang ako.


Basta masaya 4th year life. HAHA! Ewan ko ba. Mabababa mga nakukuha kong marka sa exams pero parang wala akong pake. Maiinis ng onti pagkatapos ng exams. Pero after noon, wala na. Wala na talaga akong ganang mag-aral. It's like a routine nalang kaya ko ginagawa.

Pero anyway, basta natututo ako. sabi nga nila
"HINDI AKO NAG-AARAL PARA MATAAS ANG MARKA SA CARD KUNDI PARA MATUTO."


and oh! I don't cheat. Cheating's for losers who think they will grow smart and witty by getting ideas of others. Diba top?

posted by Monica Pastoral @ 9:27 PM 1 Freaks

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

i hate you

I pity the man who pities himself.


I still haven't finished my book report. Naiinis ako. Baka may mapuna na naman 'yung teacher namin. He sucks - as a person. Siguro nga may utak siya. Pero hindi ba niya napapansin na walang may gusto sa kanyang estudyante because napaka-difficult niya. If it's his way of saying "This is me. I am different", sasapakin ko siya. You can be different without hurting someone else's feelings or ruining one's day diba? nakakainis ka lang. yun lang masasabi ko. Kahit na matalino ka, kung pangit ugali mo, wala ka pa rin. You're a walking carcass no one dares to be near with.

posted by Monica Pastoral @ 10:28 PM 0 Freaks

Saturday, July 9, 2005

changes..

I pity the man who pities himself.


Whew! It has been one hell of a week. Hello ate Chesca! Thanks for visitng lagi.. hehe! Medyo busy kaya di masyado nababago and naayos.. hehe! wala lng.. hay..

So anyway, I still have tons of things to do. Our exams are due on Monday and Tuesday so I have to study. (See? am i studying?)

Urgh! I'm gonna take UE entrance exams after our prelims pala.. We're gonna take it in Mla on July 18 ata.. I'm still not sure but I guess I will go with Dentistry. ?????

Pat pat pat! mishu bes! wat are you up to now? Sorry medyo busy talga.. hehe.. wala lng.. Chat tau some time.. hehe.. sige till here na muna..

I still have to:
1. write a book report on Pride and Prejudice
2. take Upcat review
3. rewrite my biochem notes (ugh! I lost my notebook again!)
4. review for the prelims


Hope i can finish all this! *sigh*


Life still sucks..

posted by Monica Pastoral @ 10:49 AM 4 Freaks

Friday, July 1, 2005

mAHiLiG Ako sa TagaLuBid..

tagal na rin akong hindi nagpopost so susulitin ko ang kasipagan ko ngayon...


Okay. So my life sucks. What's new?

Our guidance counselor, Ms. Kristianne Lacsina's leaving MG. Because she was so good a teacher and a friend, the students decided to have a farewell party. How emotional! (haha!) They were all crying especially those students who really were close friends with Ma'am. Anyway, I was still feeling lonely at that time because of the freaking statement our school newspaper adviser said. Oh! If you only knew the pain he put me through.

We had his class at around 9.40 a.m. He then told us not to be surprised with the results of the screening.. Oh! That man's so horrible! He made me feel so unqualified for the job. Ugh! I was at that state until the farewell party which started at aroung 3 in the afternoon and ended up at 5.

So anyway, I was so depressed I couldn't think straight. My mind was going in circles around the thought of not being eic. I felt awful. I mean really awful.

I just don't know where I'd be if I didn't get that position. I'd be nowhere. I won't know where else to go. I love writing. But I guess I really am a poor writer. I admit it, I suck. Give me a topic and I'll beat around the bush for 4-5 paragraphs. I'll be using synonymous words having same ideas and the result is a composition with an uneven flow of thought.


That's how good I am in writing. Oh! And now, If i think about it, I don't know if i still deserve to be the EiC. I totally lost my confidence and I don't think I'll be a good one if ever chosen.


So I decided to ask the results now rather than hear it on Monday. At least I would still have Saturday and Sunday to lick my wounds. So I went to the office. And asked him. He told me it really was not decided yet. I asked him again and again until I was convinced. He could be nice when he wants to. No, really.

So after that, we made chika-chika pa. There were 2 boxes of cake placed in the table. whew!!

Im getting tired.. Just have to finish this tomorrow.. Please wait for the next part. That next one's really funny.!!!

Dear God,
I know I have been bad. I have committed numerous sins. I have thought of evil. I have said bad words. I have used the name of the Lord in vain. I have been breaking your rules. Please forgive me. Help me to be a better person and make me see the light in all the darkness that prevails around me and my friends - even my enemies. God bless us all.

posted by Monica Pastoral @ 11:20 PM 1 Freaks

ako ay isang bobo.

MahiLig Ako sa TagaLuBid..

Mahilig ako sa tagalubid. Pero hindi ko alam kung mahilig ang mga tagalubid sa tinapay. Dati siguro meron pang chance na may gusto rin siyang tinapay. Pero ngayon, sa napapansin ko, wala na.

Natulugan ko lang naman siya.. Nagalit na.. Naaawa ako sa sarili ko. Hay ewan. Feeling ko lagi akong naaapi.. Sana hindi naman totoo. Baka feeling rin niya naaapi siya. Hindi ba?

Ang lungkot ng araw ko kanina. Sobra. Parang gumunaw ang mga expectations ko sa sarili ko. Biglang naglaho. Tapos sinabi ko pa sa taong sanhi ng pagkabuwag nito. Haha! Nakakatuwa ano? Kaya pala no comment siya nung kinuwento ko. Kasi alam niya. Nahihiya tuloy ako. Kasi alam niyang i wanted that position so badly. Ugh! I hate myself. Masama pa rin ang loob ko hanggang ngayon. Pero at least hindi na katulad nung kanina.

Parang nawalang ako ng boses. Inipit ang vocal cords ko. Pilitin ko mang kumanta kasabay sa banda, pilitin ko mang lunukin ang aking plema, subukin ko mang ikwento ang nararamdaman ko, hindi ko kaya. May bara sa likod ng throat ko na hindi maalis.

Tinanong ko si sir kung pwede sabihin na niya sa akin ang verdict para puwede ko ibuhos depression ko sa weekends para at least mas madaling ipakitang tanggap ko na pagdating ng Monday.


Naawa lang talaga sa akin si sir eh. Alam ko yun lang talaga ang reason kung bakit siya nagpaka-lenient.

Alam ko hindi ako kagalingan sa pagsulat. Ikinahihiya ko sarili ko. Naaawa ako sa sarili ko dahil alam kong (baka) kukunin lang ako dahil naawa rin sila sa akin. Ganon ako ka-loser. I suck. Im a big fat loser. I hate myself. Ugh!


Sana maayos na lahat ng problema ko.. Ayoko ng kalungkutan. Ayoko nang umiyak. Ayoko nang tumahimik. Ayoko ng mabigat na puso. Ayoko ng simangot. Ayoko ng masamang loob.



Help me po Papa God.....

posted by Monica Pastoral @ 11:02 PM 0 Freaks