My Better-Late-Than-Never Sorry
What you see is not always what you get.
My hormones were never reliable when it comes to decision-making. Who ever claimed it would be? Let me change that: My decisions in the past were all based on hormones. Rationality then was not my best partner. I think it felt left out and really took his leave.
Want Monica wants, she gets. What she wants to do, she does. No more thinking. And if I do think, that is just to convince me that what I want to do is what I shoul do. Crazy, huh? (Yep! That's me, Ahma cRrazythinker!) I was selfish then, too. I didn't care who I trampled with, who I hurt just so long as my desires are met. I was cruel. But mind you, my cruelty was hidden behind the not-really-sweet-but-will-do-nothing-bad persona. (HAHA! You might think I'm that bad) It's not that I have killed somebody or anything. It's is just that I think it was mean for me to drove the guard mad because he won't let me out during lunchbreaks. I was mean to my classmates who were boisterously having fun in the back of the classroom. I was bossy to the members when it came to group presentations. I was harsh. I even left other people thinking of things they want to do to me short of murder. I knew that. It made me sad.
I would like to apologize to everyone I've bullied or pushed around during our high school (even elementary) years. :
1. Andren Bernardo - First year, Dalton. I never got the chance to show him how much I've changed since he moved to another school. It actually sucks because when we accidentaly meet, I don't know if I should greet him the way I do with my friends (acting like I didn't curse him so loud his face turned red of humiliation!) or just ignore him. I'm sorry. I forgive you for that sh*tt*ng pen you had who caused my being called a Dalmatian in class. ^_^
2. Gregor Something - Grade School, Ednas. I'm sorry I always got mad whenever you tease me with Ariel. That sucked then but I guess I just didn't know how to react with that. I was a late bloomer, you see. And I don't know much about crush-thingies back then. I am sorry I pulled your hair and made your eyes swell up. Ate Rosa (fetcher? that's what we used to call it) told me your mom saw me do that and I feel really bad.
3. Sarah Terrado - Grade School, Ednas. Oooh! I would like to apologize a hundred times for making fun of you in school, a thousand times for the times we fooled you and ordered you around, and a million times for not realizing, even a girl like you (whose been trampled on so many times) can change and be someone. Those were only few of my errors and I am truly sorry. I am also sorry for what you've done with your life right now. You could have been a good girl - a better person. But you chose the way of the smokers, drinkers and easy women. I know you can still change. I just hope it's not too late.
4. Boys in High School - sorry for being such pain in the ass - killing your fun. I am sorry I tried shushing you in class even when a teacher is not around. I apologize for all the remarks I've delivered that made you want to kill me (ESPECIALLY RON).
OMG! I'm late for class!!
My hormones were never reliable when it comes to decision-making. Who ever claimed it would be? Let me change that: My decisions in the past were all based on hormones. Rationality then was not my best partner. I think it felt left out and really took his leave.
Want Monica wants, she gets. What she wants to do, she does. No more thinking. And if I do think, that is just to convince me that what I want to do is what I shoul do. Crazy, huh? (Yep! That's me, Ahma cRrazythinker!) I was selfish then, too. I didn't care who I trampled with, who I hurt just so long as my desires are met. I was cruel. But mind you, my cruelty was hidden behind the not-really-sweet-but-will-do-nothing-bad persona. (HAHA! You might think I'm that bad) It's not that I have killed somebody or anything. It's is just that I think it was mean for me to drove the guard mad because he won't let me out during lunchbreaks. I was mean to my classmates who were boisterously having fun in the back of the classroom. I was bossy to the members when it came to group presentations. I was harsh. I even left other people thinking of things they want to do to me short of murder. I knew that. It made me sad.
I would like to apologize to everyone I've bullied or pushed around during our high school (even elementary) years. :
1. Andren Bernardo - First year, Dalton. I never got the chance to show him how much I've changed since he moved to another school. It actually sucks because when we accidentaly meet, I don't know if I should greet him the way I do with my friends (acting like I didn't curse him so loud his face turned red of humiliation!) or just ignore him. I'm sorry. I forgive you for that sh*tt*ng pen you had who caused my being called a Dalmatian in class. ^_^
2. Gregor Something - Grade School, Ednas. I'm sorry I always got mad whenever you tease me with Ariel. That sucked then but I guess I just didn't know how to react with that. I was a late bloomer, you see. And I don't know much about crush-thingies back then. I am sorry I pulled your hair and made your eyes swell up. Ate Rosa (fetcher? that's what we used to call it) told me your mom saw me do that and I feel really bad.
3. Sarah Terrado - Grade School, Ednas. Oooh! I would like to apologize a hundred times for making fun of you in school, a thousand times for the times we fooled you and ordered you around, and a million times for not realizing, even a girl like you (whose been trampled on so many times) can change and be someone. Those were only few of my errors and I am truly sorry. I am also sorry for what you've done with your life right now. You could have been a good girl - a better person. But you chose the way of the smokers, drinkers and easy women. I know you can still change. I just hope it's not too late.
4. Boys in High School - sorry for being such pain in the ass - killing your fun. I am sorry I tried shushing you in class even when a teacher is not around. I apologize for all the remarks I've delivered that made you want to kill me (ESPECIALLY RON).
OMG! I'm late for class!!
